Another week is over, and it was crazy! After checking my FB feed from time to time, it doesn’t seem like I was the only one sharing this week’s craziness. However, everyone’s situation is unique. Some of my friends deal with the pressures of wondering if they want long-term relationships, others deal with the pressures of being a mediator between their children and their spouses, and many of us are trying to simply manage work stress (boo!) . However, we all have one thing in common… each of us at some point worries about our future. Where will I be next month? What will I do around this time next year? Many of us have even set age deadlines for our goals, which is great, but sometimes those goals seem more like bricks on our shoulders rather than the blessing they really are.

Thursday and Friday turned out to be extremely difficult for me (as the end of the week usually is). Waking up on Thursday, hurrying out the door and to work, I had a huge wake-up call. As I walked out of the driveway of our childcare provider, I had a temporary moment of insanity. I broke down and started crying, beating myself up for not doing my daughters hair, her nose was full of snot (I’m just trying to be honest, don’t judge me lol), I had a lot to do at work, and be prepared for a final project in my class. My chest tightened, my neck stiffened, and my shoulders began to throb. I instantly thought I couldn’t handle this, I’m just not strong enough. I put the car in reverse and started to back up. In the rearview mirror, to my surprise, was a little girl in a wheelchair with bright pink and purple wheels. She was heading down the street towards the high school at the end of the street…smile on her face, backpack on her back…alone. Now, this wasn’t the first time I saw her, but this was the first time I took notice of her. Why was she there in my rearview mirror at that instant…and smiling? She seemed so happy. Could it be because her parents finally let her walk to school alone despite her disability?

I left… contemplating my tantrum (yes, that’s exactly what it was). This little girl was strong mentally and physically. It was a long way down the street to her school! However, she woke up that morning not thinking about everything that was wrong, but thinking about everything that was right. And how strong are her parents to let her baby try those feet! Can you imagine the conversation they had with her daughter and then with each other? Here I am physically and mentally capable of handling each of my tasks, but I complain and question my abilities. Who cares if my daughters hair is not put into a nice ponytail every day, they are alive and happy! Who cares if they have snot in their noses, they’ll wipe it off eventually I guess lol… I can go to work and perform above the expectations set for me, and I can finish my final project for class. and get an A… I’ve been doing it for so long, why close the trade now?

Instead of thinking about tomorrow, next month and next year… let’s enjoy what we have now and not punish ourselves for things that don’t really matter. The only thing that really matters is now. Right now I have a fiancé who is committed to me and our life together. Right now I have 3 beautiful and healthy children. Right now I have a job. Right now we are alive, that means every day we are given a new opportunity to work towards our destiny…whatever BIG destiny that may be! Right now… I am grateful… and I promise to remind myself of that daily.